A Maths has the ability to make me experience a change of moods in a short period of time. The confused, the somebody-help-me-i-dun-geddit, when the light bulb in your brain just switched on, the anger when you can't solve, the reflection when you found out you had a careless mistake made somewhere and the feeling of god-like when you solved the question and got it CORRECT ! A roller-coaster ride in your mood and all in all, the whole process of mood swing takes place in less than 5 minutes. :O. It's a sign that it's just the start when the numbers start to disappear in the equations you are doing. Worsely, it's just mid-year sec3, zoinks! I heard that in Calculus, there wont be any numbers or sth like that and it will be filled with many symbols. JC Maths and Uni will be the ultimate killer definitely. I am quite confident of getting distinctions for both Maths this term unlike term1 which I totally flunked em as I got both 50-55. Never in my life I screwed up Maths that bad. That sucks big time. Primary school maths was a breeze of the breeze, so different from A Maths now !!!

Ok wth. You know what, MYE are like in a week's time. I can say I am quite prepared though not totally prepared. Upper Sec life has the ability to absorb the energy from your body and turn you into a zombie at school and home. :\ It has been the question stuck in my head when I was in primary school and the question was "Will I be able to cope in secondary school with 6 subjects and then around close to 10 subjects in upper sec ?" And I was right, you really need a high level of discipline to ensure that your life goes smoothly like a calm sea.

I lack time-management and the discipline to study which was incorporated with me when I was in primary school but somehow I lost them or it just reduced. Let me just tell myself that all I am doing is worth in the long term run and will definitely benefit me in the future. "No pain, no gain." But can we take the pain before achieving success ? No choice, we are forced to while some just simply cannot take it and give up. I may not see where all these studying and the 8 subjects that I take can help me in life but definitely, life must go on whether I like it or not. I am not ranting on how the education system in Singapore sucks but just telling how we want our life to be affected with it since we have no choice in the education system.

Let's just ponder about it, reflect and reevaluate your life and definitely initiate improvements or changes. ^^

I myself can't believe it that I only have 13 more days to MYE. WTF?!?! Yet I am still slacking here at the computer as there is no training because of the examinations. Sigh... on the positive note, I got Gold for NAPFA once again. Hello, from P4-Sec3 Gold all the way !!! ^^

Its 2010. To be exact, its April ! 4 months had passed in the the blink of an eye. Term 1 sucks. 336 rocks. I flunked Term 1 badly. My performance could not match the standard of a normal triple science class. Very disappointing Yusuf D: ........... I will make sure this does not happen again in the terms to come. Term 1 made me lose my identity ( myURLrox) . Definitely a busy term, packed with activities and camps everywhere. Hols basically just sucked. 2 camps, NCC SPEC COURSE and NCC Company Camp. 3+2 days=5 days. WIth 2 days of holidays left, isn't this just like a normal school week with weekends...sigh. I am a 3SG now :\. Heck spec course. My fingers and my mind do not want to cooperate to type out my experience. Its midnight now anyway. My body is not functioning at its optimal .

I am supposed to attend a malay day camp at INNOVA JC on the Monday but I had spec course, NOOOOOOOOOOO! I came to spec course hating it from the start. If I had went, definitely life will be so different just like Zuhair and Amir. Well, good for them then though they make me more motivated to get a *gf* :O. Will update more soon if possible. Tmrw is Founder's day and i ponteng from it. That explains why Im still up at midnight right.

A brief summary of this post, Im always busy since sec3 yet my results sucked. 2010's not been a good year for me with many failures that it had offered me. God, I need your guidance in 2010. Last but not least definitely, Im so lonely without a gf or special friend ... :\ last year was last year. Totally different stories and oh how I miss 2009 :\. Bye. *Yawns* Gotta sleep. Pon school tmrw :D