I am taking 15 AUs this sem. The best of it is that only 9 AUs are 'active' in the first half of this sem. Thanks to lab starting on week 7, 2 online mods which I've already cleared this recess week, and a group project mod which we only start meeting in week 6. That said, I am still lagging behind for 2 mods out of the 3 active mods. Well done.
Things are only about to get worse. I've had worse last time when my normal load each sem was 20 AUs but I already dread the upcoming weeks up to the end of finals. Allahumma anta rabbi. This is just academics.
Though I am not in any CCA and adhocs, I have 2 private students this sem and that's the only non-academics commitment I have. It has been a pleasure to tutor them though it can be draining on me travelling to and fro as well as being concerned with the student's progress'.
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Alright formalities aside. Time for some fun rant. Buckle up boys cos you're in for a ride.
I just want to be free. I hate the system. Everyone finds the group project mod a real burden. We're damn f*ked for it with our minimal progress. You don't force us to take a group project mod in the name of innovation dammit. We have other mods too. And not everyone wants to be an engineer when we get our degree ok please understand that. But who are we anyway. That's just how the system is. Forcing us to take mods we hate just so that we can be graded for it and only for it to be reflected on our transcript, defining us by the GPA.
I am absolutely done with this GPA thing. Go ahead la HR staff and job interviewers, judge me from my transcript/ resume. Dehumanize me all you want. I know my worth. You asked me what academic projects I have done in my undergrad years and only treat me as though studying is the only thing that defines me. I mean it is what I have been doing for the past 18 years, kindergarten included.
People would say oh welcome to the working world, that's just how it is. Ok la you Chief Technology Officer la last time do postgraduate studies kk I get it you big shot. But ni semua dunia bro. Go enjoy your fat paycheck ah and ask yourself if you are truly happy with what you are doing in life. Conceited gila pe. la la la. Ya you can tell that I triggered gila after going for some internship job interviews. Whatever. Have fun with your life. Same goes for all you billionaires out there who are not doing anything with your money to make the world a better place. Eh tiber. Ok end of rant. I've really repressed this for too long.
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It is already a huge success to me when I graduate, in sya Allah. With internship for next year settled, I only hope for the best as it was Allah who directed me towards it. May He ease my affairs. While you are at it with your life, may I remind you to treat everyone you meet with kindness and love. Because this life is short. The person you saw last month could just leave you without any warning. When the time has come for a person, there is nothing that can be done. May we strive to be better servants of Allah swt and treat all his creations with gentleness.
inalillahi wainailaihi rojiun to brother Muhammad Noor Khairi
You have been my neighbour for my whole life and I know your family so well. Amazing how we are not friends by definition but since young, we will always salam when we meet anywhere in our estate, carpark or in school. Just two weeks ago, I was doing lunges at our estate's fitness corner when we met after you played soccer. And that was it. The last interaction ever with you. To think that you are my age and you have left this world. I ought to live my life to its fullest and be reminded of how temporal this life is. Indeed we belong to Allah swt and to Him we return.
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| oh little one you have no idea how much joy you have brought ever since you graced this Earth xo |
