Sometimes I wonder if I really want to ORD. Really. No joking matter here. You can call me absurd all you want. I know for a fact that I've been looking forward to ORD due to my ORD trips in mind and a life unshackled from the 3 days cycle which is the rota shift. That's what makes ORD seems so glorious as of now. Upon bidding farewell to my fellow SCC mate who was posted to the same rota as me, I can't stop thinking about this all day.
It's been
quite a while since I have more or less settled down into station life (obviously right 8 months already siol). I've gotten comfortable with this. It's more than just getting used to the working culture. It's about the bonds formed with the rota throughout the past few months. Feels like one big family mate. No doubt I'll leave with a heavy heart.
One day I'll wake up feeling empty knowing that I don't have to report to Tuas Fire Station anymore for duty. Forever. It's supposed to feel liberating but I foresee that it'll be outweighed by that empty feeling. Just like how I miss my trainee life after POP-ing despite wanting to POP soo bad. Like so soo fking bad really. Soon after that I'll begin a new chapter which entails its own challenges; totally different from anything I face in NS. Why do I say this?
"I thought after going through station life in Yishun I'm ready for anything uni throws at me. How wrong I was."
These were the exact words from my casual exchange I had with an NUS undergraduate mat, Hilmi, who was an ex-seccom at Yishun Fire Station for his NS. So what was his advice to me?
"Make the best out of your time in station before it's all over."
Well said brother. God knows why I had that exchange with him right before my halfway mark of my station life. After all, this was the life I hoped for back then as a student :).
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| farewell brother...and here's to more memorable moments in the next 10 months |
The email I have been waiting for finally came. Without any hesitation, I opened it with my fingers crossed. There. God answered my prayers. I looked up to the sky with my palms covering my face and instantly I had a flashback of my A level prep days back in 2014. I wouldn't want to relive those days again though I truly treasure them. I know getting into a rather generic engineering course in a local uni isnt really a feat that is impressive to the eyes of the public. It is the course I am honestly interested to read. It was worth it to press on and finish off what I started after failing my first year in JC despite having thoughts to transfer to a polytechnic . Sigh now I am reminiscing my 3 years in CJ. I have God to thank for as his plans are always better than my dreams.
Now I'm left with less than a year to serve before I enrol and begin a new chapter in my life. I'd probably wish I could be an NSF again when I am overwhelmed with stress in the future. It is something that I foresee especially since an exchange I had with an NUS undergrad mat who was also a Section Commander at a fire station for his NS. Oh well. Just focus on the present. Remember, find purpose in the simpler, every day parts of life. Here's to a blessed Ramadhan ahead where we invest in our hereafter more than the dunya. Last but not least, having a 3 year JC education with mediocre results is not the end of your education pathway, whoever you are. Tough times don't last just like this world and your shortlived life. Hmm...
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| I should pay her a visit soon together with Sanjugayshit as well |
