In less than 10 hours, we will be welcoming 2014. It's time to reflect on 2013. This year has been a year full of changes and learning how to adapt to them. It's rather unbelievable how so much can change within a year. There are some changes that I've gotten used to and some which I still have not. As a revisiting student, I had to attend Orientation for the second time. Didn't really made the effort to spend time with my OG throughout the year haha. My OGLs were awesome though (Mel Tai & Jun Han yay). I was also placed in a new tutorial group. I didn't expect myself to like my new class as much as I had thought during matriculation tbh haha. I kept on comparing them to 2T25 which was rather stupid as obviously they are both different classes with students of diverse personalities. This time it's quite weird to me with a couple in a class. I just can't provide an explanation for that somehow lol.

My A div teammates noticed that I had changed this year as compared to last year in terms of my personality. I was much more bold and outgoing in floorball. Well I guess I was really comfortable being around them. They are too awesome, what to do. Same goes for the girls team. Once again I can't help but compare them with my new teammates as they've stepped down. It's so different now. There's still people I can mock but it's just not as fun with my A div teammates instead. No more bus partner after training too ahhh. I will miss that the most sigh. Even the coach-cum-teacher IC has left. I wanted him to see me play in A div this year just so that I can show him how much I've improved since over a year. Oh well. There's 4 new teachers under floorball now. Trainings are still fucked up with the 5-7/ 7-9 timeslot but this time it will be on Tuesday and Friday instead. Seriously fuck la I wish I can just quit floorball and go all out with just my weighted calisthenics and squats/deadlift training which I started a few weeks back. My motivation for floorball training is running low, like reaaaaaaaally low it's not even funny. 5-6 more months of this shit. My passion for floorball is still there but I just lack the discipline to train hard for the next A div. Proud to be in CJ floorball but I can't wait to step down though. I'm pretty sure the incoming juniors will regret joining floorball once they know the training times haha. CJ floorball should just close down after 2 years la. Even the 'founder' of the team has left sigh. What to do. Push on and it will eventually be over.

6 days before school reopens. The main thing that I look forward to will be using the school gym though. The usual J1s at the gym are quite an awesome bunch and I hope we can motivate one another in our personal lifting training. It's also probably the only way I get to make more friends with this batch as I didn't attend any stretch programmes such as OBS/OSLP/WASP due to financial reasons and. It's rather ironic as I actually made some money by not attending those programmes haha. It's going to be hard to accept the fact that the J2s this year won't be in school anymore. I'm too attached to this batch. Even travelling to school will be a struggle as I don't have anyone to look forward to boarding the bus with me. I hope it won't be long before all these don't matter to me anymore. Pretty sure I will be too occupied with schoolwork next year. A level year. The ultimate year to conclude my 13 years of education.....by obtaining a certificate with letters on it ya. Really have to make the best out of next year and get it done well with no regrets. It will definitely be hard but nobody said that it will be easy. Faith in God will get me through 2014.

Happy New Year

I'm done with you. I did what I could. I guess you didn't want me to be part of your life anymore. I'm glad that I tried. I have no regrets now. Such a huge load of worries off my mind now just like that. It was rather easy to accept this fact. I guess I saw it coming. You did what God wanted you to do I guess and you can leave now. Here's to a good life ahead for you and thanks for the sweet memories.

Maybe the angel was in me all along

Hey all. Pardon me for the lack of blog posts for the past year. As you had known from my previous post, I had to repeat my first year in JC. So unreal that 2 years have already gone by in CJC and I'm moving to J2 next year (YAY...oh wait, f*ck). It was a tough year being a retainee right from the start of this year. Most people would think that the worst part of being a retainee is the judgement that you get from the public in general and the fellow J1s. Really, that's such a mild issue of being a retainee. The worst part is that you are self-conscious of yourself as a retainee throughout the whole year and you won't be graduating with your J2 batch :(. I got too attached to the J2 batch and didn't put in much effort in integrating with my J1 batch now so I claim fault on that. There are times whereby I wished that I can turn back time to the very first day of orientation in 2012 and get everything right from there. Obviously I was living in the past.

Apart from that, the benefits of being a retainee are pretty much academics (ya if not what's the point of retaining right lol). Not that I had stellar results or I'm an honours roll kid but just contented with what I got. I know I could've done better but at least I did what I had to do and what's more important is the big A's :x . This year was more on fixing my attitude towards academics rather than mastering every single topic. There's still much work to be done on my weak topics. I'm just glad that I have made tremendous improvement as a JC student in my attitude towards academics from 2012. I know what it takes to be a JC student now and it really demands a high level of discipline to be one.

Anyway the J2s are done with A's. Congrats to them. Just one more year before I get to taste freedom from JC. To be honest I'm afraid of what next year holds. Afraid that I might fall back to my 2012 self and end up flunking shit next year. Afraid that I might spend 4 years in JC. Ok enough. I shouldn't even let these thoughts infiltrate my mind and just focus on the present. One step at a time brah.

Best. Team. Ever

Academics aside, 2013 is indeed a great school year. The best memories of it was undoubtedly the A division journey with my pioneer floorball batch. Can't believe how close we got ever since we met each other on the trials. Best bunch of guys to be with in my JC life so far. I was really fated to be in that team. Go read from my previous posts to know more about that. It was also through floorball that I got close with a girl. Nope, I'm still single and we were just close friends but that was the past (sadly). At this point in time, it's rather awkward with her now thanks to f*cking exams. Communication was put to a hold for like 3 months straight. Prelims-promos-Alvls. I have no idea if I still mean as much to you now as compared to earlier this year. It feels like I'm on a crossroad whereby I can just walk away or pick up the pieces and try again. Up to me to decide. I'd go for the one which will leave me with no regrets regardless of the outcome. No point giving up after I've been through so much. Ok nvm shan't blog about it as it's too long-winded. If you know me personally then you'd probably know my story.

Framed up on my study corner :)

Indeed this year was about redemption in almost everything.

Moving on to the present, I went for 3 different temporary jobs right after one another in November. First one was a warehouse assistant for 2 days. Highest pay and shortest duration of all thank god, that job sucks. Next one was a stock-taker at another warehouse for 3 days. Much better job. Last of all was a primary school science camp leader for 2 weeks. Pay is decent and the job is really manageable. Learnt how to handle primary school kids too lol though I got the upper primary class. Contented with my total earnings and now December shall be spent hitting the books after a long time. I'll start with homework before I move on to revision on weak topics. I doubt I can find time next year to master my weak J1 topics once school starts as it will be learning new topics all the way up to midyears before J1 revision begins. A division is gonna be a bitch too and I hope my academics won't suffer that much. Heck, I wish I can quit my cca now as I really prefer playing with my old team. That's what I mean when I said retaining sucks. Alright I hope I spend my last month of temporary freedom well to benefit me both in the short-run and long-run. That's all for now.