Accounts from an INFP & a Muslim Singaporean son

Wow it's been 4 months since I last published a blog post. Hi. Life's been a monotonous cycle of schoolwork and exams. What to do. JC. My last blog post was about my MYE results which was extremely bad. Oh well guess what, my promotional exams(promos) commence in a day. Time really flies man. As of now, I THINK I can promote by meeting the minimum requirements for promotion, which is 1 H2 pass, and subpasses for GP and other subjects. Sounds manageable right? For some of you, it's a 100% chance of promoting with this criteria. I guess not that cut out to produce stellar examination results in JC. Quoted form my cousin, also a JC1 student, " In secondary school, we study to get A's. In JC1, we study to pass." Totally applicable hahaha. Judge me all you want.

I realised how short the JC course is as the year is drawing to its end. 2 years is definitely a short period of time, filled with stress from head to toe ( oh god what ridiculous metaphor am I using xD). I feel like I should have gone to Millenia Institute instead as it is a 3-year course and also offering A-level. It's in Bukit Batok for God's sake, my own estate and is just a 15min bus ride at most. Oh well it was fated I guess. It's ok. I love the people in CJC though. Such a fun environment to be in though I don't favour my class that much. I think being in a boys school for 4 years has made me somewhat become judgemental on girls and will analyse their personalities thoroughly before I can hang out with them. I mean if I can't be myself when I'm with girls, then I will not spend time with them and will rather be with guys that I'm really comfortable to be with. Thank God most Josephians are in CJ haha. Thus, I regard my classmates as nothing more than classmates. I think there isn't a single girl that I'm comfortable with and I'm actually fine just being with guys like my SJI friends and floorball teammates o_O. Heck, at least I'm not distracted because of relationships and I'm still straight.

Oh well back to the point, whatever it is, whether I am retaining or promoting, I must get that A level cert with above average grades which can get me to my dream course in uni but I shouldn't talk about that as I shall focus on the short term goal first, to pass promos. Anyway I hate the fact that retainees are always being judged by society. Admit it, we didn't really have a good impression of retainees on our first few days of orientation did we? We just don't know what they've been through but instead judge them. Thus, my

fear of retaining is that I will be judged by society which includes my relatives and also I have to postpone my enlistment LOL. I mean it would suck to still be studying when your friends are already enlisting and they can simply remove studying out of their daily activities. I wonder if it's peculiar that I actually look forward to enlistment. Ok, enough about that.

All in all, I have to stay motivated no matter what happens and keep on working hard. It is just another phase/ chapter of my life. I must remember that all these hardships will only reap its fruits in the future with the labour presently and seek guida.nce from God for paths with less obstacles or paths which strengthens my character eventually. Lastly, I will like to thank you for reading this blog post which seems to be more of a rant and reflection on my life this year. You might be someone who has been through what I am going through,someone in the same boat or maybe someone who took a different path that I took. Ok I really have no idea who reads my blog anyway. Thank you once again and God bless.

P.S Pardon my awful English proficiency. I only speak Malay at home since I was born. On a totally irrelevant side-note I miss SJI though it's just 1 bus stop away from CJC and it's only been a year since I graduated.