We have reached the halfway mark of the school year. So relieved yet alarmed at the same time. Free from CCA and SL duties now. I doubt I have anymore contributions to the school unless I am the parade commander for CJ's NDP. On that note, I forgot to meet the respective teacher about it yesterday :x .

Anyway, the semester ended officially with Sports Carnival yesterday. It was a bittersweet one and really memorable with the delays due to bad weather. Thankfully it went smoothly once it commenced. I was really anticipating to play football one last time for Patrick house as the goalkeeper. I was supposed to be the substitute keeper but ended up as the main keeper as the main goalkeeper attended a seminar by Nick Vujicic in the same morning zzz. Advanced to the finals against Joseph house as anticipated after winning all group matches. It was still goalless after full-time and the winner had to be decided by a penalty shootout. Oh God. The stake of winning the match lies in my hands (no pun intended). I have never felt so much pressure this year to perform well in sports. Not even during A divs hahaha. Unfortunately, luck wasn't on our side or rather we were not fated to win and loss by 1 point. Furthermore, Joseph house was crowned the overall champion for Sports Carnival 2014. They won us by a narrow margin (less than 5 points if I'm not wrong) and we were grief-stricken. Nevertheless, I'm still proud of how we dominated 4 of the sports namely Netball, Ultimate Frisbee, Captain's Ball and Floorball (1st after 2 years of 2nd and 3rd !!!) 

Intense Photo Source: CJC FSV

My 4x400m team which got 4th. Proud of them nonetheless ^^

I swear I was dying in the last 100m. I hate you 400m. Photo Source: CJC FSV Patrick SLs 2014 xoxo Photo Source: CJC FSV

The day ended well with a short meetup with the SJI mats after so long not hanging out with them due to my hectic schedule in Term 2. It was not just another of our meetups but this one felt significant as one of them, Amirul, has obtained his driving license and sent us home after that. It's so unreal. Weren't we just hanging out in SJI canteen, breaking into the gymnastics hall, playing soccer at the hockey pitch like a few days ago? Ahh, the good old days which can never be relived again. Ok let's not reminisce about the past and be forward-looking. I shall leave you with this confession (not by me) which resonates with my thoughts on my time remaining in CJ. God bless.                             

tl;dr Make it count.

"Why is she so pretty?"
 "Why is she attached to a Chinese guy?"
"Why is she in a different JC?"
"Why don't my school have such Malay girls?"

No I shall not elaborate more on this ephemeral infatuation.

"What else can I do to improve the school gym petition?"
"Why can't they just open the school gym for us to use?"

Regarding the school gym petition, apparently the PE dept or rather a particular PE teacher wasn't pleased with the writeup in the petition to open the school gym. So flustered. I really miss using the school gym.

"Why me when we there's a UG cca in our school?"
"What about the uniform to be worn?"
"Am I able to step up and perform well for this role?"
"When was the last time I did drills?"

I was offered to be the parade commander for my school's ndp. Ya those questions popped up in my mind instantaneously. I have to decide by Friday. I am inclined to accept it but the problen is that I've outgrown my ncc uniform and I gave away my badges and beret too.

I do have other thoughts on my midyear results but I shall wait until I officially get all of them in one go, which is next Tuesday. Ok I shall spare you with my self-motivation wrap-up I usually post for the past few posts hah.

It's over. It's finally over. Today marks the day we end our Floorball A division season. We were gunning for a victory today but things didn't go in our favour. All it took was a lapse in our defence, conceding a goal in the second period which set the ball rolling (no pun intended). I guess we deserved to lose. We went into the match complacent and wasn't really playing to our best. I kinda saw that coming. I had a premonition on the bus journey to RP that we will lose this match and I just couldn't picture us winning the match and celebrating. Their drive to win was truly prominent throughout the match. Looks like history repeats itself for us. We've had our proud moments together as a team and our downfalls too. Our performance this season (bottom table btw with 1 point) is merely a reflection of our commitment to trainings and pt. Shall not dwell more on our season. All in all, I'm just relieved that it's over though it didn't end the way we wanted it to be.

That aside, the end of our season also signifies the start of my full commitment to studies. No more excuses. I believe that the next 5 months or so will be the most crucial period in my A level prepations. Totally driven to do well for A's, mainly by my sec4 classmates and other SJI friends. Proud of them all for their stellar results. I can only blame myself if I don't achieve my desired results. Really can't afford to perform under my expectations and regret in the future. Time is in my hands now. I can spend some time gymming after school but no more chasing after girls please hahaha. Jk, I was never involved in any of that bgr stuff, for this year (I don't think getting quoted on someone's blog posts twice counts) at least and absolutely no desire to change the status quo. Let's hope that I can get over today's loss and have a fun week ahead especially with the upcoming Sports Carnival this Friday which is also my last event as a Sports Leader. May my midyear results fuel my drive to succeed. Well, I can only pray for the best and focus on what I am in control of now. God bless.

Cheers to the end of MYEs woo *throws confetti* jkjk that's gay. I am sassier than that *does a backflip*. Let's not go to how MYEs went. I am just glad that it's over and it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be (maybe my results would prove me wrong) for some papers. Anyway I really thought that I could take some time to unwind and carry on with my life as per normal now then I realised how I'm in for an exhausting week ahead with 2 Sports Carnival, training and 2 games back to back :o. Started off with the first day of Sports Carnival. It's really a bad idea for the school to organise such events immediately after exams as I'm pretty sure nobody actually trained for their events and their fitness levels are bound to drop. On that note, I had 4x400m today and I'm pretty disappointed with my speed though we qualified for the finals. Nothing interesting from then on. Took the opportunity to collect 100 signatures for our petition to open the school gym when many were done with their events. That was fun hahaha.

I don't know what to feel about having our last training today though. Part of me is really glad that I can finally part with this burdensome training since post-promos especially with the 7-9 training time twice a week. How did I even get through that wah. What will I even miss about trainings for my second participation in A divs? So hard to find the answer to that question this time round unlike the pioneer batch of CJ Floorball haha. Probably the study sessions and that isn't even part of training haha. Glad that this shit is coming to and end. The main reasons why I really hated trainings are the late training times and also the fact that it hinders me from my personal training at the gym. My passion lies more in achieving my fitness goals. No passion, no pride in my CCA. Thank God I get to try out something new this year with the change in position from a forward to a goalie and also for the teammates I have for the fun and laughter shared. I doubt I will play floorball again in the future. Perhaps for inter-hall games ah cehhh step confident future NUS student.

Thanks for the memories in floorball and Patrick Sports Leaders. I don't know who I would be without these two positions. It has really shaped me into who I am today since I came to CJ. Can't believe how it will all end in just two weeks time and it's time to go all out on studies. Not ready to leave CJ. Not ready to grow up. Not ready for life. Whatever it is, I'll make it count with my time remaining in CJ (apparently someone quoted this on a blog post wow so interesting). That's all for now. More updates on A divs/Sports Carnival/ MYE results coming up.God bless.

Atrocious. I can't find a better word to describe the papers I sat for my J2 Mid Year Exams (MYE) today. GP in the morning followed by Bio in the afternoon. Really dreaded this day and I'm just at a loss of words of how it went. (siala why I contradict myself; if loss of words then how can I write a blog post about it you genius sia Yusuf) Summary of why it was atrocious:

GP Paper 1

•  I think I wrote out of point or just lack content. Essay length was 2 pages. Ya I only used 1 paper. Hahahaha fml. 
• Categorised my points wrongly. Found a crumpled essay draft at... Staircase 6 (no questions asked please) which belongs to an anonymous J2 and realised how I could've organised my points more thoroughly and into the categories which was written in that draft. So beautiful, I wish I had planned my essay the same way but I guess I panicked and wasn't composed enough to think of the same points during the paper.

GP Paper 2

• Already knew before the paper that there will be 2 compre passages but woah, blown away by the content of it. It was more of a philosophy writing by two writers seriously. Or maybe I'm just dumb. Hmm. Handful of bombastic words in the passages or maybe my vocab is just that limited. 
• Again, knew beforehand that AQ will involve comparing authors' views. Crapped a paragraph out mm ya.

Bio Paper 1 + 2 + 3

• 3h paper with all components from Papers 1-3. What in the world. Mentally exhausted after 2h+. Therefore wrote only 2-3 lines for each essay question and my planning question was halfway done. I really hate the format this time but whatever, at least I'm done with it.
• Last but not least, (in fact this is the best point) the only hint given by the Bio dept for our paper was that it was similar to A level standard. Boy sure it was, more than half of the MCQ was from TYS and I think only 1 or 2 questions from STQ wasn't from TYS (a friend of mine noticed it when he flipped open the TYS after the paper when he was home) Not too sure about the essay questions and planning. My Bio TYS is still clean fyi. What a huge loss from not heeding that advice. I focused more on the past school papers and tests I took in the past 2 years+. Anyway my original plan was to do like 5 papers (all new syllabus) after prelims. The price I pay for being stubborn. 

I keep on telling myself that what's important is A's and it's okayyyyyyyy to erm screw up for MYEs? These two subjects are my weakest anyway. Someday everything will pay off. It will ok it will. Just let me fall this time and I'll pick myself up even more determined. Still slightly depressed about today. Why am I even blogging when I have like 2 more papers this week faaaaak. Screw myself. Impose a hiatus on twitter and gym for 2-3 weeks but discipline still poor hahaha. Ok ok I will start on Econs after this. If you have midyears (oh I wonder who reads my blog from my school, who ah)  then all the best though you're gonna ace everything as usual pfft.