I'm turning 24 this year. Oh no. My student days will be long gone soon enough. I'm sure the next 2 years will go by in a flash. I'm losing motivation to do well in school. It's just ridiculous how packed the syllabus is in uni. Just embrace it I guess. Nothing will change. I am not aiming to graduate with FCH anyway so might as well take things at a slower pace. I look forward to the end of the sem so much, especially when Ramadhan awaits in sya Allah.

You know how in your 20s most of your friends are already in a stable relationship. Then there's me wondering how it'd be a miracle itself if I were to have a 6-month relationship minimum. I hate myself for thinking as such. I need a mindset shift. The biggest blessing of being single in my 20s is definitely the freedom I have to travel and work in my free time. Alhamdulillah. I am a strong believer in toiling hard in the present so that my labour will bear fruits in the future.

I am not going to settle for less. Don't date just for the sake of filling up the loneliness you feel at times. It is human nature to want to be loved by a s/o. What more when you're a young adult. Focus on your relationship with your creator first. Isn't He the Al-Alim, the one who knows all there is to know. Every single blessing in disguise. Every trial that I go through. It's all sent because He loves you. Yes it sounds contradictory but truly He only wants the best for you. Indeed He is the best of all planners. Subhanallah.

Here we go Yusuf. You got this. Set your intentions right. You can always renew it when things get overwhelming. In the name of Allah, the most merciful and the most compassionate.

La Hawla Wala Quwwata Illla Billah

                 

SGT(3) Yusuf signing out

 B A H A N  M U S L I M S

My highlight of Y1S1 was Beztari. For Y2S1, no doubt my Muslim support/study group made in my course are the highlight of the sem. It's simply amazing how we all click with one another without much effort. Alhamdulillah for them. To me, there are 2 ways to look forward to school

1. Date someone in school. Every single day is a new adventure. Needless to say, it's a double edged sword.

2. Suffer together with your clique/ study group.

Those days preparing for finals were real tough and mundane but we really got each other's backs during that period. Thanks for chasing sunsets together each day during reading week and for the h2h conversations. May Allah bless you two always, Siti and Nasrun. May He grant us strength through supporting one another in our remaining time in school.

never forget to seek Him in times of ease and hardship

P R O G R E S S  C L A S S

Alhamdulillah I have served Progress Class for 4 years. The P3s I took this year were the toughest students I've ever had to handle to date. They are the most mischievous of all the levels even no other mentors want to deal with them. Many lessons learned on classroom management. I cannot possibly survive handling my P3s if not for my amazing team. Props to them all. May Allah reward you all for each bit of knowledge imparted and may it be beneficial to them.

It is also through Progress Class this year that I dated someone unexpectedly, albeit short-lived. I learnt a lot from this episode too. I have a feeling that you will be under me this 2019. We shall see.

Was it worth the stress and frustration? Maybe...

all part of qada & qadar. I surrender to the Almighty

R A M B L I N G S

I used to wonder why I can never get the timing right. We will always drift. Either I am ghosted or I will reject her straight right from the start. But then I realise. No such thing as right person, wrong timing. It's simply the wrong person. If it's the right person, it will be timeless. Perhaps He put her in my life at such timing as it was right only for that moment. Once the moment has passed, the beauty of that person has faded and any attempts to keep her beyond the time frame will only lead to a disappointment.

I have someone I'm interested to know but I have never met her and the only way is for me to follow her on her social media first and try to make a move. Will I do that? No. At least that's what my mind tells me though if I were to follow my heart, I would do it...I think.

Whatever. It's really not a priority now. I can't be dragging someone into my life when I have yet to figure my life out

Anyway, I believe messing up my financial goals takes the cake as the biggest regret/idiotic mistake done in 2018. I did not know how to be grateful for what I already have but wanted more andddd I ended up with a negative cashflow for the entire year. At least I learnt that there really is no fast way to make money the halal way. Forex is haram. So is crypto and betting (no shit).

I hope I can start my own financial portfolio in 2019. I have applied for a CDP account and that's the first step done. It has been 10 days though and there is still no news on it. Strange.

Got to put the past behind and move on. You got this. May you continue to grow wiser in 2019 and emerge stronger than you ever imagine.

May peace be upon you.