Hey all. Pardon me for the lack of blog posts for the past year. As you had known from my previous post, I had to repeat my first year in JC. So unreal that 2 years have already gone by in CJC and I'm moving to J2 next year (YAY...oh wait, f*ck). It was a tough year being a retainee right from the start of this year. Most people would think that the worst part of being a retainee is the judgement that you get from the public in general and the fellow J1s. Really, that's such a mild issue of being a retainee. The worst part is that you are self-conscious of yourself as a retainee throughout the whole year and you won't be graduating with your J2 batch :(. I got too attached to the J2 batch and didn't put in much effort in integrating with my J1 batch now so I claim fault on that. There are times whereby I wished that I can turn back time to the very first day of orientation in 2012 and get everything right from there. Obviously I was living in the past.

Apart from that, the benefits of being a retainee are pretty much academics (ya if not what's the point of retaining right lol). Not that I had stellar results or I'm an honours roll kid but just contented with what I got. I know I could've done better but at least I did what I had to do and what's more important is the big A's :x . This year was more on fixing my attitude towards academics rather than mastering every single topic. There's still much work to be done on my weak topics. I'm just glad that I have made tremendous improvement as a JC student in my attitude towards academics from 2012. I know what it takes to be a JC student now and it really demands a high level of discipline to be one.

Anyway the J2s are done with A's. Congrats to them. Just one more year before I get to taste freedom from JC. To be honest I'm afraid of what next year holds. Afraid that I might fall back to my 2012 self and end up flunking shit next year. Afraid that I might spend 4 years in JC. Ok enough. I shouldn't even let these thoughts infiltrate my mind and just focus on the present. One step at a time brah.

Best. Team. Ever

Academics aside, 2013 is indeed a great school year. The best memories of it was undoubtedly the A division journey with my pioneer floorball batch. Can't believe how close we got ever since we met each other on the trials. Best bunch of guys to be with in my JC life so far. I was really fated to be in that team. Go read from my previous posts to know more about that. It was also through floorball that I got close with a girl. Nope, I'm still single and we were just close friends but that was the past (sadly). At this point in time, it's rather awkward with her now thanks to f*cking exams. Communication was put to a hold for like 3 months straight. Prelims-promos-Alvls. I have no idea if I still mean as much to you now as compared to earlier this year. It feels like I'm on a crossroad whereby I can just walk away or pick up the pieces and try again. Up to me to decide. I'd go for the one which will leave me with no regrets regardless of the outcome. No point giving up after I've been through so much. Ok nvm shan't blog about it as it's too long-winded. If you know me personally then you'd probably know my story.

Framed up on my study corner :)

Indeed this year was about redemption in almost everything.

Moving on to the present, I went for 3 different temporary jobs right after one another in November. First one was a warehouse assistant for 2 days. Highest pay and shortest duration of all thank god, that job sucks. Next one was a stock-taker at another warehouse for 3 days. Much better job. Last of all was a primary school science camp leader for 2 weeks. Pay is decent and the job is really manageable. Learnt how to handle primary school kids too lol though I got the upper primary class. Contented with my total earnings and now December shall be spent hitting the books after a long time. I'll start with homework before I move on to revision on weak topics. I doubt I can find time next year to master my weak J1 topics once school starts as it will be learning new topics all the way up to midyears before J1 revision begins. A division is gonna be a bitch too and I hope my academics won't suffer that much. Heck, I wish I can quit my cca now as I really prefer playing with my old team. That's what I mean when I said retaining sucks. Alright I hope I spend my last month of temporary freedom well to benefit me both in the short-run and long-run. That's all for now.