The past two days were a wake up call for me. It has fully dawned upon me that I will be taking my A's this year. It took me two months as J2 to realise that somehow. It seems like all along this year I am attending school as a J2 student and not as someone who will be sitting for A's this year. I was really driven to do well for A's when I left school today. I wonder how it will be like for me if I actually didn't retain. Will I get my desired grades? Will I regret not giving my best for the past 2 years? The answers lie in my own hands. I believe that God made me retain so that I will fully make use of the time 'bought' to redeem myself and do well for A's. No, I am not totally blaming my own failure in 2012 Promos on fate. What I mean is that if God really wanted me to promote at that time, he would've given me a wake up call months before promos and let things follow his course. Instead, God is leading me to another path which will lead me to a greater height.

13 years of formal education and it all boils down to my efforts this year to determine my future. Such a daunting thought. Let's make it count. I can't afford to disappoint my parents again and again. This time I will make them proud. They've put in so much faith in me and brought me up to where I am now. As their only child who opted for the JC path, I want my parents to have a child that graduates from a local uni. This will be my drive for this year. Looking back, it may not have been a smooth journey in the past 12 years of formal education but as long as I end it well, I can only look back someday and say that I gave my all and I have no regrets. It has begun.