I don't get life. Neither do I get how the world functions.

I have always noticed that with every passing phase of life, I will dearly miss the previous phase of life despite wanting to get it over and done with. It seems like an endless cycle to me. That said, I am always grateful and proud of myself for going through each phase of life. Praise Allah for his guidance and everlasting blessings. As of now, a new cycle has begun and I am at the stage of wanting to end my national service real soon. I have not adapted to my new working life yet and perhaps my viewpoint on this matter will change in time to come. I believe that someday I will understand why God put me through this and I'd long to go through again somewhat. My mind just went 'You got to be kidding dude'. We shall see. Just remember, whatever you're going through in life, it will pass. It will definitely pass.You will get through the hardships you're facing. Be patient and don't lose hope. For all you know, what you deem as hardships could eventually turn out to be the good times that leaves you reminiscing about them in the future. I can personally attest to this with my A levels intensive studying period just one year ago. It felt like I was just going through the motion of studying in the college library in daylight and in a public library in nightfall,day in day out but going through them with my bros made it such a bittersweet experience.

worth the extra year thanks to you guys :')

and this mofo who was with me from the start of jc right to the end, to the point of working together during the holidays

On a random note, I miss working for Giant as a part-time staff while waiting for enlistment. The 4 months of work seemed short. I'm sure my first 4 months of station life will pass by this fast as well. Initially, I chose to work for Giant due to its convenient location and short working hours; 5 minutes cycle from home and 6 days of 0700-1300 shift. Imagine my disbelief when I was sent to other outlets for a short period. One at Bedok Central and one at NTU like what. I was only bothered by the hassle to travel but it was worth it. I got to explore NTU a little and Bedok Central as its side benefits. The NTU store will definitely have a few eyecandies so that's a plus point too lol. Oh and how can I forget witnessing a few shoplifting cases. Looks like my early 2015 wasn't that bad after all. Sadly I don't have any photos of my working stint and I'm only left with the memories.

Dammit this wasn't supposed to be a post reflecting on early 2015 but whatever man. Back to the topic of NS, I want it to end soon as I have drafted some plans for post-ord lol. With the money saved from NS, I hope I get to embark on a solo travel to New Zealand for like a month. I am dying for it man. There will definitely be more of such solo travels in the future if God permits. I am not just going to be someone who works, raise a family, pays bills and die. Thinking of living such a bland lifestyle is already making me cringe. I want to see the world. I want to experience other cultures. I want to interact with Muslims worldwide. I want to climb mountains. There's really so much more to do in life. What a beautiful thought that what I've experienced in life is only a small fraction of what life has to offer. It is also tragic that I have so much to look forward to but I fail to live in the present and not truly cherish life now. What to do. Life has no pause and rewind button. Just remember that this too shall pass.