It feels so unreal that I am officially done with freshman year in uni. How could I go through such an arduous sem if not for the strength that you have provided. Alhamdulillah. I can't help but wonder a lot to myself lately: What do I want to make out of the remaining 3 years of my university education? Will I be going for a semestral exchange in Y3? Will I have any co-curricular commitment? It's all planned by Him, the best of planners and it's kept a secret from me.

Since the previous semester, I've tried to envision myself as a Beztari member throughout my 4 years in uni. No matter how hard I tried, I could hardly get a clear mental image of it. I know that I really have no interest in it at this age. There were so many signs that made me realise this. From parents umrah, Kursus Tarian Melayu workshop with Naqi, and last but not least, from my self-reflection. Rather ironic that roughly only 15 hours of the sem were spent with dance-related stuff but it feels as though the bulk of this sem revolved around it totally. Anyway I'm truly sorry for the slightest inconvenience I have caused to any of the Exco members and also the additional work they had to do due to my withdrawal from production committee. I guess that's the end for me. I enjoyed my time last semester learning contemp, which did provide me with a drive to dance then.

In all seriousness, it's appalling how my gym time was limited to the SS9002 lesson slot only. I am so disappointed in myself. I miss the pump, the confidence, the movivation and the satisfaction I get out of hitting the gym. No more excuses please. We're in for a transformation.

On another note, I still haven't gotten over the ephemeral date I had last sem. Like ya I know whatever that happened was all qada but the good times shared together comes haunting me out of nowhere be it when riding home from school alone, studying at NIE library, praying at NIE musolla and so on. Such a pity that I am still not over it. In time to come In Sya Allah.

All in all, whatever I'm going through will be worth it in the long run. Remember my intentions, remember Him always and He will ease my affairs for me In Sya Allah. Time to get the rest I deserve in my first summer break. May Ramadan and Syawal make it a joyous one and also a spiritually fulfilling one amin.

1 down, another 3 years of tolerating each other's nonsense

Best night of the year so far. OneRepublic 2k18

If there's anoything I miss besides the great memories shared with friends in school, it's definitely the mesmerising sunsets I get to admire in