بِسْمِ اللَّهِ الرَّحْمَنِ الرَّحِيم

In the name of Allah, the Most Gracious, the Most Merciful

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Alhamdulillah, we're now in the blessed month of Ramadan. No better month to start off my summer break. All this while, I used Ramadan as my motivation to end the sem and masya Allah it's really here now! With that, I am done with my second year of undergraduate studies alhamdulillahx3. 

It hasn't been easy. Not at all. I doubt it will get easier from here on. Well, it's finally over. I got through this semester. Or rather, I dragged myself just to make it to the end of the semester. 

Don't get me wrong. I don't hate my course. I honestly love learning new stuff which leaves me in awe. The knowledge attained is absolutely great. The feeling of solving complicated Maths problems is as great as ever too. I just hate how the amount of content covered and the pace of lectures is way too fast. I detest forcing myself to study just for the sake of exams. But hey that's just how the system is. I can't fight it. Might as well embrace it without going beyond my limits.

This semester, I learnt to appreciate all the blessings in my life more. I guess one of the talk I attended by NTUMS sums it up nicely:

Divide your time into three realms: i) Private ii) Family iii) Society

F A M I L Y
Family time is so precious and I look forward it so much every week. I can't get enough of my niece Allahuma anta rabbii. Allah knows how much I love her. I love seeing how my eldest brother has grown to be a responsible leader of his family. It's simply inspiring. I feel old too. The thought of how someone who shared the same household with me since birth now has a household of his own. Let me just appreciate the position I'm in now and trust that Allah s.w.t has the best plans for me. 

F R I E N D S  

Besides my family, I'm so blessed to have friends who are more than just dunya friends. Friends of the deen and dunya. Allahu it is only through your mercy that I've met amazing friends in school such as Siti, Nas and Haziqah who have helped me so much with school. I can't imagine how the past 2 years would have been had I not known them. May they always be under His protection and mercy always, ameen. 

C A R E E R

On another note, I have started to dwell on industries I set my sights on upon graduation. With an upcoming graded internship in year 3, it's time that I pick the industries that piques my interest. No matter how hard I tried to visualise myself working in the engineering/tech field, I just can't. FYI, my school organised a company visit to a company that deals with the production of surface coatings. Eye-opening visit I must say. Strangely enough, I just kept on thinking of how I am not suited for this. Really. I kept on thinking of my time in SCDF. 

L E A D E R

And then it happened. On a random night, I witnessed fully how firefighters from STN44 attended to a vehicle fire at a carpark opposite my house, at 2.30am. How I wished I was part of the crew. Unfortunately, I was just a member of public. I could feel the adrenaline rush from where I stood (my room) as they put out the fire. In fact, I was observing the strategy they implemented to fight the fire. I was disappointed in their strategy tbh haha. I would've done something different and more efficient if I was commanding that crew. Easy to say as a bystander I guess. It's simply different when you're there in the moment. But still. I analysed their strategy and wished that the rota commander could be more involved. What a waste HAHA. That was it. I know that I am a potential rota commander. What's stopping me from becoming one? We'll see. Still too early to say but I am honestly fine with it, if it's decreed to me. Allah knows best. Wallahua'lam. 

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Last but not least, it has been a great year alhamdulillah. I became close to my partner in PC. I am so grateful for you. I guess fate brought us together. In Allah alone we rely on and seek for the best for us. That's all I have to say for now and more to come in sya Allah. x

I look forward to the upcoming months. I didn't think that going to Korea for summer studies would turn to reality. All the worries about taking the mods I wanted are gone now that I have successfully matched and registered for the mods. Alhamdulillah! 

With that, stay tuned for updates on Hari Raya and Korea. You got to wait longer for updates on my s/o hehe. Ramadan Mubarak and I seek forgiveness to all those who I have wronged and feelings I have hurt through my words or actions. 

Peace be upon you.