You feel helpless and lost with everything. It's your third time applying for a final year project and you have been denied of one, again. What is going on? You thought all along that securing an FYP is a straightforward process. But what do you know. Then again, you had a friend who shared how he only got his FYP in August and even had to look for another FYP halfway through the sem when the Prof was posted out (though he's from another course)
You had specifically made doa asking Allah the al-Fattah to open doors to the right project for you. Looks like you need to keep making the doa and seek His guidance. Allah knows best.
At the start of 2019, you were eager to start your driving lessons in June. You even opted for private learner initially but switched to a school learner cos it's a hit or miss lol. Then the news came. "BBDC will be closed during circuitbreaker." There goes my summer break plans. You could still go for the remaining 7 lessons as it will be open in Phase 2 but you decided not to. The break between these lessons and the next available ones in September is a little too long. At least all the cancelled lessons are refunded and you are not in a rush for the license. God-willing. My plan was to get the license before grad anyway. Bismillah.
The 2 annual events which you look forward to each year, SJI Jalan Raya and Extended Family Jalan Raya, were cancelled this year. Oh well. They say there's always next year. I look forward to Hari Raya Haji.
Remember my date one girl a year trend I have been fulfilling unintentionally. You tried again this year but got rejected...for now. Hmm. Afterall, you know yourself that you would like to settle your school matters which bug you constantly. But what do you know. You really don't know much. You have grown from every rejection. Be strong dear self. Have faith that rejection means redirection to something better that is truly meant for you. If you only you knew what Allah has planned for you.
You wish you can fast forward to June 2021, just so that you can see how all these current problems turn out.
With that, we'll see how this post ages. I look forward to my 2021 New Year blog post update. God willing.
Peace be upon you
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